文:Yamie

經過一年多的漫長等待，陰暗的天空終于露出陽光，溫暖了疲累的心。好久不見的一把聲音又再一次闖入了你我的心房，輕輕哼唱「Beautiful Love」。

在聆聽Tanya蔡健雅的新作『T-Time』裏的5首歌曲，忽然一陣感動，說不出話來的感覺湧上心頭。

因爲我們終于又在音樂之路，遇見最熟悉的Tanya了，只是現在的她更成熟了，也更才華洋溢。

新來的歌迷或許還來不及感受這股震撼，但如果是一路聼著Tanya音樂的人，一定會起共鳴。

不知不覺的，經過10年的醖釀，商業化的改革，最初感動我們的那把聲音也變了。不曉得怎麽的，但一直覺得「蔡健雅」和「Tanya」這兩個名字代表著不同的意義，兩個不同的方向，不斷地進行拉鋸戰，捆住了Tanya的心，更挑戰了她的極限。

如果一提「Tanya」，想必大家馬上聯想到的一定是那個創作獨特，個性十足的創作人。就像在環球時代的音樂一樣，沒有太多拘束，很自由灑脫的。腦子裏立刻浮現的畫面就是Tanya輕鬆寫意地抱住吉他，輕輕彈出幾個淡淡的音符作爲背景，這一切即自然又隨性。

但如果一説到「蔡健雅」，相信大家第一個反應就是那一個『都會情歌代言人』的雅稱，更對於她的演唱實力刮目相看吧？「蔡健雅」到了華納批上城市的外衣，神態自信穩重，更多了一些成熟女性的韻味。

不過卻讓許多一開始就注意Tanya音樂的朋友產生了一份的距離感。

因爲這個「蔡健雅」不再跟大家分享心思，不再隨性開朗了。尤其是在「雙棲動物」裏，她變得更深沉内斂，甚至把自己當作第三者來分析一切，讓人再也感受不到Tanya的特質了，所以很多人也開始質疑華納是否改變了Tanya，因爲他們已經漸漸看不到Tanya的影子了。

當然不是說在華納的「蔡健雅」不好，因爲在華納的「蔡健雅」讓我們看到了很傑出的表現。這不僅僅是以演唱者的身份感動人，更是以一個音樂工作者的認真，感染了整張專輯。所以現在我們看到的「蔡健雅」已經是一個獲得臺灣金曲獎肯定的「女歌手」和「製作人」，更是樂迷們開始留意的一個名字。

但無可否認的是，「雙棲動物」的的確確少了Tanya的味道，更讓人覺得不讓擁有獨特創作實力的她美專，無疑是音樂界的一大遺憾。就這樣子一味地將歌手的「蔡健雅」塑造成主流歌手，讓Tanya和華納都迷失了方向，更陷入沼澤，寸步難移。Tanya開始自我懷疑，公司對市場沒信心，更失去了作戰的精神，讓「雙棲動物」成爲了一大音樂遺憾。

唯一可以安慰的是，「雙棲動物」並沒有錯。因爲無論在演藝詮釋上，還是音樂製作上，它都達到了非一般的水準，讓它成爲2005年其中一張最佳的流行音樂專輯。對於一直處於猜測狀況的Tanya而言，迷失的源頭應該已經漸漸清晰了。

是音樂，在Tanya的世界裏，音樂是無法取代的。就算再好的演繹，更好的製作，少了Tanya那獨特的音樂性，縂就會讓人深感遺憾的。因此這次的「T-Time」，Tanya不再迷惘了。

從一開始非常抗拒做精選集，到最後的妥協，我們看到Tanya對於音樂的執著和信仰。這次的她不再聽從他人，而是自我爭取一切。從專輯開案時不斷強求一定要5首新歌，到後來強硬要求自己安排主打，甚至親自下海當任製作人、混音師、錄音師等，不分日夜細細製作每一首歌曲，我們都感受到了Tanya的認真。

儘管Tanya說這次讓大家看到全新的「蔡健雅」，但熟悉Tanya的朋友應該不難發現，現在這個由Tanya親自率領的多元化「蔡健雅」，其實就是我們好久不見的那個「Tanya」了。

只是現在的這個「Tanya」也變了。她變得自信有主見，對於音樂多了一股專業，卻沒有遺失那一份最初的好奇心。在聼著全新的「障眼法」和「過動兒」，我微笑了。這才是我們最熟悉的蔡健雅才對。在自信穩重中，帶些孩子氣的調皮，對世間萬物充滿著好奇心。

如果2003年的「陌生人」讓你驚覺她的才華洋溢，2005年的「雙棲動物」讓你聽見她的實力，那2006年的「T-Time」會帶給你全新視聽覺極大震撼，因爲此時此刻的你只有到現在才發現，眼前的這個「Tanya」原來一直都是一個難以推敲的迷團，永遠都是充滿著意外和驚喜。

2006年，重新出發的她捨棄「蔡健雅」所帶來的華麗包袱，不再當冷漠的「陌生人」，企圖用自己最真的個性來接近大家，讓你們看到更清新自然的「Tanya」。

一把吉他，一個微笑，Tanya再一次輕鬆地走到你我的身邊，跟我們用最愉悅的心情一起度過最Beautiful的「T-Time」。

（原自：TANYA歌迷部 @ http://tw.club.yahoo.com/clubs/chua-tanya/ ）

Alright, alright, time to filfull my long overdue promise to tell you guys about the comic I'm reading recently.

First, the title of it is: Ouran High School Host Club (Or 櫻蘭高校男公關部，for those who reading in english, it is now released at volume 6, while the chinese version is now at vol 7 (Coming Soon). If you are reading the Taiwan version as I am, then stay tune for volume 8 (which is now released in Japan).

For those who prefer Anime to comic, then, I'm telling ya the series is now airring in Japan on Mon/Tue (depending on which part of Japan you are at) and now at part 4.

Okay, enough on the media info, now I should be tell you abt the story...

Ouran High School is a exclusive private school (I know I'm repeating myself but you will soon know why...), in short you have to have social status and brain to enter the school... You have to be SOMEBODY somehow and really rich... Coz the uniform cost 300 000 Yen for one suit... =.=|b

But our main lead is a poor student who had earned the scholarship of the school (Actually, I find the lead to be more of a normal income family, but the minute you compare it with the other Ouran students, the lead is said to be poor and suffering.) Haruhi is said to be a exceptional scholarship, as no one has ever entered the school on scholarship. It would be fine for the lead if not for a little accident that happened on the first day of school.

In short Haruhi Fujioka, our beloved lead stepped into the famous Host Club and broke a vase. The vase cost ￥8,000,000 ^^~ and seeing that Haruhi-kun is poor, Tamaki-kun (King and President of Host Club) decided that Haruhi-kun would be an Inu of the club, meaning a dog or according to Kyoya-senpai, a servant until Haruhi-kun leaves the school.

However, Hikaru and Kaoru (Twins and classmates of Haruhi) soon discovered that under that untidy dressing of Haruhi-kun (Haruhi has no money to buy the uniform so the best way is to wore a old shirt of dou-san~ Note:It's not that her fashion sense is poor, but she will throw on whatever's at hand, no matter how crummy it looks), Haruhi-kun actually looks cute and gets "promoted" to be a Host instead.

But it took the club members some time to figure out that Haruki-"kun", is actually a girl... So now she continues to work in disguise to pay off her debt. The secret that Haruhi is a girl stays within the club and the boys would fight with all they got to keep Haruhi's secret, in order to keep her in the club. (It seems that all the boys had grown fond of Haruhi and Tamaki even remarks that Haruhi would remain as the O Hime-sama (Princess) of Host Club.

In all it is a funny series and I really enjoyed it...

Here's something on Haruhi... (I like her character~ haha)

Haruhi doesn't appreciate the preceived differences between the sexes, so she is very casual about working as a host. She is naïve and oblivious about certain things. However, she is bluntly honest and usually says what's on her mind. If it can be taken as an insult, that usually isn't what she means because she commonly speaks without malice. She also doesn't care much about looks. When she first met the Host Club, she was a bit distracted by the six gorgeous guys. Now that she's used to them and their eccentricities, it doesn't seem to phase her anymore. She has learned to go with the flow of the club. Her natural charisma makes her a big hit with the clients with her innocent yet honest remarks.

As for Tamaki-kun... I'm not sure... haha sometimes I think he's cool but like Haruhi-chan, I tend to see him more of an annoying idiot~! haha~

Tamaki is very emotional and has an enormous, sensitive ego. He gets depressed "funks" when he or his ego is hurt. He also likes to experiment with new things - in other words, things of the commonfolk. He often means well, particularly with things concerning Haruhi, but sometimes his good intentions blow up in his face. He is very much a drama queen, or king in this matter, and likes things to be grand and extravagant, especially when it comes to the Host Club. He can tear up at will, though his tears are usually genuine, except he does overreact a lot. He is easily upset when it comes to certain things.

Character info taken from: For Richer or Poorer
http://ouran.krysyuy.net/ouran.html

Oh wow~ I just heard from my mum that tomorrow is actually my Chinese Birthday...
How .... nice... haha~

Really, I have never been one for parties and celebrations... especially in my favour~
But it seems that this year is different... well, as different as it can be to my friends and family...

First, I got the million dollar question from all my classmates~ err.. ex-ones that's it~ Haven't been to a school for almost a year...

When am I going to have my birthday party?

God...
And I'm not even aware that they know when is my birthday~
Well, they never use to make it a point to say a Happy Birthday then...
(Note~ I said classmates, some friends are really cool~)

Then again, I am not one to make it a big deal anyway...

So years go by, now I am faced with that big 21....
And it seems everyone is making a deal out of it...
Considering the shocking number of SMS I received from everyone out of nowhere...

Hmmm.... what's the point of celebrating?
It's just the number of years that flew by you without you noticing...
Oh ya, after that big 21, you will start noticing...(laughs~)

I guess I should put a list of birthday wish on here huh?
Just to get into the mood of it... Coz I know 80% will not come true anyway~

Birthday List:
1- Get a good long rest and live my life simple...
2- See how an album is produced...
3- Get my hand on that extinct Tanya Chua single Alright
4- Find a way to make and keep every one I care for happy
5- Less headlines and problems on earth
6- Learn to play the guitar... (God knows I have been putting that off for years)
7- Get a new PC???
8- Write a song???

Wow~ My list is a sadist...
But really, not that I care...
I't just another list...

Looking at my title, how many of you are actually muttering, "I knew that already~"? I think many would be... It is almost normal to say that this is a fact of life...

But wait a minute, this baby here is still trying to grasp the fact...

I knew that fact, really...
But I never believe that...

Funny how you can acknowledge things without believing in them...
That's what I did and that's how I got a culture shock today...

I just don't get it...

How could people say nice thing to hide a more sinful reason?
God, and to think this fool here was touched for a while when she hears the nice thing.

Damn all, why make things so bloody Complicated?

I am a bit upset by how people actually played one up only to get rid of them...
I think that's really mean... coz you can always confront that person and give a chance but no... they chickened out and chose the easy way...

And what a joke it is...
The so called easy way out would be to lie and pretend to be nice...

No, don't worry, I'm no victim here...
Just a reason for someone to "care" about and dismiss another...

To think I was once touched by the concern....

No, face it kid...
Life is never that sweet and kind....

In short...

Things are never the way they appear to be!

D 梅花 （代表人物—Hebe）
梅花是世界著名的觀賞花木之一，它以風韻美而著稱，每當冬末春初，疏花點點，清香四溢，在中國它與松竹并稱爲“歲寒三友”。古往今來，詠花的詩詞歌賦以梅爲題者最多，或詠其風韻獨勝，或吟其神行俱清，或贊其标格秀雅，或頌其節操凝重。如果你當選了這朵女人花，從表面上看，你應該是堅強保守的甚至你周圍的朋友都認爲你清新得有些孤傲，但是你卻擁有非同尋常的熱情，在面對生活時，那種熱情如同雪中的一束紅梅，在你心底有着對世間一切最純真的想法，正如被雪水浸潤過後呈現出的梅花最純淨的顔色，你有情卻不多情，你可以改變卻不善變，膚淺的男生不會走近你，走近你的一定是注定幸福的男生。

Thoughts:
Okay, I just did this test at the China site and am quite amused...
Hmmm.... Hebe huh? Well, I was mentioned a couple of times by my friends that I did had a Hebe personality... So maybe it is true~ Laughs~

But going back to the results, it is quite true at some points...
Eg:
「從表面上看，你應該是堅強保守的
甚至你周圍的朋友都認爲你清新得有些孤傲，
但是你卻擁有非同尋常的熱情」

Many did feel that I'm a rather cold person to be with but yet after knowing me, they would not feel that way... I do rather be cold and in control in situation that I'm not familiar with, then with friends I can relax....

「在你心底有着對世間一切最純真的想法，正如被雪水浸潤過後呈現出的梅花最純淨的顔色」

Well, I guess I can be naive at times... I do hope for all the impossible and then get upset at how the world turns up to be... And I realised recently... I do tend to trust people a little too much... laughs~ Guess you can say I try to see the good of everyone huh? haha~

「你有情卻不多情，你可以改變卻不善變」

Hmmm.... that line makes me sound so good... I do wish I'm like that but well, that I never know~

蘇菲亞的願望
作詞：陳忠義　作曲：陳忠義　編曲：陳忠義/黃中岳

Sophia離開了她的家　為了一個遙不可及的夢想
揮別了　深愛她的爹娘　還有從小看她長大　巷子口雜貨店的張媽媽

Sophia她不太會說話　對這世界總有些奇怪想法
雖然說　沒有人了解她　也許夢想中的城市　會有她的舞台綻放光芒

原諒她　只有這一個願望　就像每一個孩子一樣
很難嗎　還要付出什麼代價　上帝才能夠成全她

＊她沉重的行囊　裝著小小願望　陪著她　這一路闖蕩
　也許掙扎　也許害怕　無所謂吧　下一步是天堂

＃這閃亮的城市　卻看不見星光　忽然她　眼淚就落下
　世界太小　夢想太大　難道人生是殘酷的笑話
（世界再小　夢想再大　人生不會是殘酷的笑話）

Sophia剪掉了長頭髮　單純臉頰畫上了鮮豔的粧
雖然她　不認識那個她　她卻不斷說服自己　這樣的情況還不算太差

他們說　實現夢想的籌碼　就是輸掉一點點自己
但是她　看著鏡子裡面的她　懷疑這是她要的嗎

Repeat ＊,＃

你或許聽說過她　Sophia
或其實你也是她　給她一點安慰吧

Repeat ＊,(＃)

她沉重的行囊　裝著小小願望　陪著她　這一路闖蕩
世界再小　夢想再大　唯一不變的是她 Sophia

Note:
This song was first introduced to me by Ella,
she mentioned that she cried when listening to the lyric and was certain that anyone away from home who feel like how Sophia did in the song...

I truly agreed with her and almost cried myself when I heard the song...
It has been sometime since I last heard it but now upon listening,
I felt truly touched and sad...

How is it that, we are always lost along the way of life and losing parts of ourselves... Sometimes, I can't even recognised myself and wonder what the hell am I doing?

My favourtie line is:
「他們說　實現夢想的籌碼　就是輸掉一點點自己
但是她　看著鏡子裡面的她　懷疑這是她要的嗎」

I don't know how you all are feeling, but now even with a job,
I'm feeling terribly lost and unsure of myself.

Yes, I am finally working and lessened the load of my family,
But, I still feel that some parts of me missing.

Been to my friend's 21st birthday party recently and heard everyone telling me that I've changed. But had I? I never felt so, but yet, I can't deny the fact. I am changed. I don't look like I used to, and I don't think like how I used to...

Things are changing, and I'm losing faith...

My greatest fear is to be like anyone else...
Yet, I'm fast becoming like anyone eles...

Dream...
Whenever was the time where things are just the way they are,
And everything seems just so fine? I missed them all... and most of all,
I missed myself...

Oh yes~ I'm finally here around~ God~ I almost forgot how to do the skin~ haha~ but really... It has been some time since I last did something on this blog... I bet you guys (If you are still here~) truly thought that I'm dead or somehow~ haha~

I think I do agree with the sentence... Coz I do feel that some parts of me had died off~ and I just can't do anything I enjoy nowaday~ It saddening but I guess this is what growing up is about...

Okay, forget about the blues now~

Hey I just did a skin~ and it's still an Ella one~ Laughs~
But I think I like it alot~ do give me some feedback on it ok?

Cheers~